Thursday, November 25, 2010

Whats With Me And Hospitals???

Arini punya story...
lepas penat meng update
entry blog utk beberapa hari lpas
ni cite aku harini...



Aku teman bpk aku g hospital td,
risau betul dgn keadaan beliau...
hopefully kesihatan die akan getting better...
yelah tetiba je...
refer klinik pakar 2 pembedahan,
panik la aku...



hrp2 xde pape la...
tu pun kna dtg blik...
dah jd mcm routine check...
minx2 mase tu aku dpt la temankan...



tp...
disebalik cerita tu
ade sesuatu yg sgt mengganggu aku



aku akan depressed setiap kali g hospital...
sbb aku x suke g hospital...
ubat,bau yg mcm2,
environment,emotion...
pendek cite...
I hate everything there...



ok,lets me explain...
ubat,bau and disgusting figure tu
kite xyah la nak mention...
masing2 pham lah kan...



tp environment and emotion tu lah
aku rase perasaan aku terdera setiap kali g hospital
seolah2 sumenyer sedih...
xkan ade environment gembira dihospital...
unless you dpt good news
or either you had a baby or something
(coz birth is nature beauty)



mksud aku mcm tulah...
aku xtau lah ni trauma or fobia
but hospital is the last place I wanna be...



so,unless ade hal saje aku akan g sana...
melawat,teman my fmly or aku sendiri yg hospitalised
or admitted in ward...
selain tu,nk g saje2 or keje kat sane
ha,you wish!!!
never...



thats y lah aku kagum dgn
hospital crew...



Doctor sbb diorg ni sbr,good looking,
pandai,berwibawa jek,and sggup hadap tugas medik gitu...
nurse sbb diorg ni sggup sacrifice and layan patient
dgn PATIENCE...



else than that,
there is no other way to make me
impress or admire hospital more...



maybe coz so far,
pengalaman aku kat hospital
is all about sadness...
so,i refuse to look back kot...
ntahla...
hopefully this is a normal thing to feel...
coz I really do hate it...



xtau la how to change my view,opinion or feelings ever...
so does my statement...
ahaks...
mybe I will feel this way 4ever
nothing can change it...
ever...



(I even thought of home birth...)
silly me,just to think of it...



p/s...



My dear sweetheart,where are you?
Sejak jadi supervisor and get promotion ni
bz je kejenyer...
mmg la bersyukur die naik pgkt.
Tp kdg2 uh...bosan....die xde...
rindu.... (ah,terlebih gedik lah kau disaat2 ini!!!)

Still Entry About STPM (SijilTinggi Persekolahan Malaysia) -Day 2 and 3-

Paper Pengajian Perniagaan 1
aku bole kate aku puas aty la
overall...
x la smpai ke tahap gaban susahnyer
mcm yg aku expect...

Paper Bahasa Malaysia 2
ok lah sebab tajuk karangan yg aku expect
or at least bce sikit isi nye tu bebetul kuar...

rumusan lak ok2 je,
aku wat tepat2
due ratus patah perkataan...

alih text kuar dialog and prosa...
like I expect...
tp of coz lah aku pilih dialog an...
simpler than ever...

analisis kesalahan tatabahasa/bahagian D
memang cipan lah mcm bese...
ahaha
very complicated and x jumpe
yg mana salah yg mana betul...
nmpk sama jek,...
huhuhu
mmg aku x target pun...
so,what?
Ahaks!!!

tp paper Sejarah 1 sucks!!!
nak taw nape?
First,xde gap...
direct je...
dah la before tu 2 paper sekaligus
dlm sehari...
hello,pk lah weyh..
simpati and berhati perut la sikit...
MPM ni pown!
Paper pagi lak tu...
bile nak bace lg dgn byk2 tuh...

Second,yg aku target x keluar...
Betul yg ade tajuk Prasejarah
dgn Perang Uhud jek pown...
yg lain sume x keluar...

Mana tajuk... -
NEGARA BANGSA
PEMERINTAHAN REPUBLIK
PENJELAJAHAN DAN PENEROKAAN
NABI SEBAGAI NEGARAWAN
ZAKAT
PIAGAM MADINAH
MASYARAKAT JAHILIAH
AGAMA DAN KEPERCAYAAN

MANA WEYH???????????
satu pun drpd tajuk2 itu,
TAK KELUAR,... LANGSUNG...
very seriously...
damn shit!!!

so,entahlah...
mmg kena effort lebih ah pasni...
back up dgn paper yg lain tuh
4 is done...
4 more to go...
yee huu...
ngoi!

BILAKAH AKAN BERAKHIR?

Bawalah daku pergi dari gelisah ini,
bawalah daku pergi dari derita ini,
bawalah daku pergi dari sepi hati ini...

Sijil Tinggi Persekolahan Malaysia (STPM) bermula!!! -Day 1

First exam paper Pengajian Am 2...
setelah hafal 22 karangan target pelbagai negeri
termasuk isi sekali...
dgn soalan ramalan...
aku dgn confident level 75%
melangkah masuk dewan exam...

dpt paper...
hati bergetar bagai nak giler...
bace2 doa ape2 yg patut...
semak2 kertas...
and penjaga peperiksaan tu ckp:
ANDA BOLEH MULA MENJAWAB SEKARANG
aku pk,...
“ok,here we go... ready,set...go!”

tp...
bukak je bace soalan...
muka aku drop abes...
rase mmg berubah kat situ...
my face feels like
it felt thousands apart...
I mean...
satu pun drpd krgn tu x keluar...
frust kot...
dlm hati... “DAMN, I'M DONE!!!”
Seriously,COME ON!!!

xde satu pun soalan target masuk...
serius aku rase impossible...
tp itulah kebenarannya...
hahaha TENSION!!!

tp pastu pk Positif...
elemen (+) in my head ^_^
bhgn A & B siap...
kira OK-OK lah...
50-50%
bolehla kot sbb ikut logik
and pengetahuan semasa...

Bahagian C... Pemahaman...
main cerabih je sesedap rase,
ikut idea yg sempat difikir ketika itu...
tp ok le tajuk x susah sgt...
and yeah Pak Cik Radio...
EN ALIP B.MOHD NOR,
hahaha :-p
bgga sgt kau yek masuk jugak tajuk
NANOTEKNOLOGI
(selepas seharian beliau meyakinkan aku
tajuk tu HOT and akan KELUAR!
Tp aku degil and x cayer)
hahaha hambik kau!!!

tp nasib baik gak kat bhgn C
kalau kat krgn laras Sains?
Reaksi aku... dah nangis da
secukup2nyer dlm dewan exam...

Bhgn E...Carta tulang ikan...
BEST2!!!
pernah buat dlm PP sebelum ni
so aku sesedap tulis 4 pages
bersamaan 2 m/s...
sedapnye goreng weyh!

Yg last sekali aku buat...
Bhgn D... Graf
aku mmg x target part ni an...
carta Pai mmg dah aku out kan...
pastu sekali die bg graf soalan sikit punye pelik
yg aku x pernah jumpa or buat...
ke aku kurang wat latihan?
Haishy... entahlah isy isy isy (^_^'')
-geleng2 pale-...
last2 aku main sedap wat jadual dulu
then kt kertas graf tulis tajuk and sumber
tp x wat graf pun...
ahaks...

10 menet nak abes...
aku give up pk sal graf...
pusing kiri kanan...
saling berpandangan dgn Alip,
tgk org len dah abes or tgh fokus lg
wat graf...
aku pun campak and baling pen...
(slow motion)
penjaga tu ckp...
SILA SEMAK KALI TERAKHIR
KERTAS AKAN DIKUTIP SEKARANG

I was like...
“ha ambik sgt lah kertas ni weyh...
tanak tgk lg dah”

Keluar dgn muka tension...
tp last2 gelak2 gak...
sengal...
hopefully blh bla ah...
nak capai A mcm mimpi jek la
tp at least aku hrp dpt la Prinsipal 2.00
at least cukup2 pointer and kelulusan eh...
cukup terma and syarat U... AMIN!!!

xpe aku pk,
kertas 1 ade lg...
still leh tunjuk power...
jgn nk nanges2 bile paper first rase down gini
nnt paper lain drop jgk...
perjalanan masih pnjg...

7 MORE PAPERS TO GO...

YEE HAA COWBOY GIRL,
FASTENED YOUR SEATBELT ON!!!
“Your ride is still on the track...”
IT WILL BE LONG BEFORE IT REALLY ENDS...

Dedication for supporters...

I wanna say thank you in gazilion times
for these people who support me
when exam is coming
even they know...
how hard STPM are...
(SIJIL TERLALU PAYAH MA)

1)My Dad- MR AHMAD ABDULLAH terchenta...
-yg x jemu2 support anak die nih in every step and choice of studies...
-yg x penat2 anta anak die nih g exam sume...
-yg akan kejut bile anak die nih lmbt bgun...
-yg cover setiap kali anak die nih monteng sekolah/skip kelas...
-yg sentiasa teman dihari2 hujan dgn payung leaking tuh sementara tggu bas...
-yg membebel setiap kali anak die nih lambat g makan...
-yg sentiasa tolong anak die nih set tv every meal time...
-yg sentiasa bersyarah setiap kali anak die ni demam or terlepas bas...
-yg sentiasa ade modal utk bercerita and wat lawak kdg2 uh smpai x bole stop...
-yg always jek bersenandung nasihat bab2 DISIPLIN kat anak dara die yg susah gile nak mengamalkan disiplin nih...
-yg sentiasa jaga anak die nih and love her for who she is...
-yg deserve to be love and respect by everyone...
-yg baik hati tp susah org lain nak nmpk...
-yg tunjuk muka garang tp sbnrnya baik...
-yg gaduh dgn anak die nih tp sbnrnya bersebab...
-yg marah anak die ni sbb syg...
-yg jadi mak and abah serentak tanpa kekurangan...
here take another kiss for you!!! (^_^) ...
thank you so much abah and I Lovesssss YOU!!!...

2)My Ibu and Ayah and cousins sefamily-TQ :)

3)My Family on dad side,on mum side,on my side,and on his side-TQ SUME!!!

4)Mama and Adikku tersayang Maisurah Farha-TQ for the prayers... <3 :)

5)Kak Cik-my really great supporter ever since the idea of form 6 existed in me,TOCHE2!!!

6)Bestfriends aku sume-IJA+AMIERA MARLINI+ZAI+SHIEMA=LURVE KORG SUME!!!

7)Labuan team-AMIRAH AZAM+ASMIRA+NAZ+THE REST OF YA ALL... tq eh...

8)My frenz-Atin,Liza,Ella,Bad,Erry and not 2 forget Izhar yg msg2 and call bg chaiyok2...

9)Counter Strike/Mustaffa Munir-Tq ye awok doakan owg dpt wat yg terbaik dikala solat dan doamu tiap waktu...

10)Cikgu2 yg x henti2 support and doakan anak muridmu ni dpt A dlm sume subjek... Terima kasih!

11)Last but never the least, My Love... Mr Saifudin b. Mohd Ali Yasin tersyg...
-yg x stop2 bg kata2 semangat, kata2 perangsang tiap waktu...
-yg call at least 15 minutes a day to make sure i'm doing my best and still holds on...
steping on the ground... and look up to the sky...
-yg bg sajak time diriku demam b4 exam...
-yg make me happy time keluar date aritu...
-yg nyanyikan lagu2 favourite and lagu khas utk diriku wlpn kdg2 lari piching... (ahaks)
-yg sweet2 or romantik mgade and gedik tgk time/tempat...
-yg sentiasa wat every call bermakna dgn ayat2 sengal and slumber and cool and manje sometime
(if I am lucky that day) :-P  ^_^
-yg call me dgn pggilan MY LOVER tanpa segan silu... (^_^”)
-yg sempat msg b4 diriku masuk dewan exam bg smgt...
-yg love me for who I am dari dulu sampai sekarang... (nape bru skrg aku tau?)
-lastly,yg sentiasa wat suare excited everytime I tgh gundah gulana to avoid me crying overacting!
# thanks a lot syg, i love you for that, and I am missing every seconds without you... #

and thanks gak for those who
didn't believe I can do this...
and say NO YOU CAN'T DO IT
coz your objection is transformed
2 be a positive energy now...

but...i know how hard it is...
always been and going to be
I will never regret taking form 6
life is too short for regrets...
we must go on...
do further...
go even far than we expect
climb the highest journey you ever think...

plus...
Form 6 has taught me so much
that I never expect to learn and understand
gives me experiences
and gorgeous moments
beautiful memories...
good and fun time... etc
it helps me reach my dreams...

I'M GONNA MISS EVERYTHING!!!

The Night Before Exam Starts... (plz kill me in my sleep!)

Mlm b4 exam...
x bole tido!!!
pusing kiri kanan...
guling sana sini...
gayut sana sini...
call sini sana...
msg sume...

yelah...
selepas setahun stgh
belajar...
perjalanan yg sgt jauh rasenya...
tp terasa cepat berlalu...
masa yg mcm pendek gile...

ni dah sampai saatnya...
kepenghujung...
perjuangan sebenar...
kaki nak menapak ke dlm dewan exam...
utk lonjakkan sebelah kaki lg ke universiti...

rase mcm Almost Impossible
but Seriously Possible...

sambil tu tertanya kat diri ni...
apa yg dah belajar selama ni...
rase mcm kosong je
Empty...

Dah cukup ke persiapan ni?
Dah habis ke preparation ni?
Dah boleh ke jwb ni?
Susah ke x ni?
Boleh buat ke x ni sehabis baik mungkin?

Rase mcm I'm GOING CRAZY
pastu perasaan bercampur baur...
this is a battlefield
life and death situation
HIDUP AND MATI

masa depan ko bergantung kt situ
hisyh SCARY!!!

like...
THIS IS IT!!!
the moment you have been waiting for
the one and half years long...

nervous and panic...
sambil hrp dlm hall x blank/blur/blackout...
HUH...

Friday, November 19, 2010

LuRvE VS HaTrEd... Ade BEZA Ke???

Kata org...
benci dan cinta bezanya x byk...
malah garisan yg membezakannya
halus...
dan sgt nipis...

maksudnya bila2 mase
kite boleh cross ever the magic line
between them...

yg benci boleh jd cinta...
yg cinta plak blh jd benci...

aku x pernah lak nak benci2
org yg pernah aku cintai...
kalau ade kuar perkataan benci tu pun
di mulut je...
hati kata lain... ehehehe... ^_^

so...
aku x phm sebenornyer...
mcm mana ade org boleh jd benci
and kutuk2 org yg diorg pernah syg
bgai nak rak dulu tu...

Pelik VS Weird

I mean...

dulu time syg...
u la cinta... u la nyawa...

sekarang time benci...
u la tapir... u la enemy...

hishy... xtau nak habaq lagu mana dah!

Nasihat pown x guna lagi na...

tp ade jgk org yg x dpt gak
get over ex masing2
tp pepandai nak kontrol org lain
supaya x balik kt ex...

cth mcm Kazen
die sendiri dah ade yg punyer
dok heboh nak kuar dgn yg x sah
and dah terang2 jd ex...

tp...
nothing is impossible
when u are in love kan...
yelah...
bak kata pepatah...

LuRvE Is BliNd...

tp aku rase sekarang...

org yg bercinta tu yg buta sbnrnya...
betul ke tidak?
Huhuhu
renungan bersamalah tu ye...

P/S: thanks dear...
becoz of u I never look back
to ex “s”... :)