Sunday, September 29, 2013

Better keep it.


You and I...
we were good with each other,
we got along,
we were great together so far,
we were doing just fine with each other,
but maybe, 
our destiny are not leading to one another,
and we are not meant to be together,
coz u and i..are two different person with two different mind,
two opposite direction and ambitions in life later on. 

Saturday, September 28, 2013

The One That Got Away-Un Reciprocated Love


She loves him 

Ever since she laid eyes on him
At the very first sight.
He loves her
Because she cares for him
And the fact she make his life more meaningful than it was.


They fell in love,
They fight for love,
They go against the world,
They fight with each other.
They blew each other with misunderstanding...
And they also blew each other of disappointment.


They made silly mistakes,
They made huge mistakes.
They made wrong choices and decision.

She let him go,
Over immature thinking of teenage age and youth.
And he let her go with her wedding gown with someone else
Someone who was wrong for her
and deep down inside they both knew.


They still have that feelings for each other,
Until one day he chose to begin his new life with someone else.
She felt a twist of sadness.
But that must how he felt back then when he let her go.


They both are mutually in love,
They let each other go,
Their love remain silent.
And they accept the fact that they just not meant for each other. 


Be strong both of you dear.
And to a friend, make the best of your life and stay cheer.
I hope she made your life felt even better.
And for the other she let her live her betrayal.
It is just the fate and life flow. Let it go.

Friday, September 20, 2013

Requisite Love, She Fall For Him?

Let me tell you a story…

He care about her,
She fall for him,
She fall for the way he care about her,
And about his family,
He’s a matured person,
He had a good focus on his studies,
She thought her heart starts to pound again,
She thought it is beating for him.

She was just a confuse person,
Don’t even know who she really care about,
When there are people lining up,
Just to get to her attention.
She was just to please with herself,
Or maybe the malay word for it, *perasan
Flatter bout herself.

O’girl don’t be.
Don’t do that again to urself.
I told her she needed to wake up
 and face the reality.
Life is like that.

Just don’t let the fire burns,
Like it has done to me.
Just stand up and walk out there.
Further and forward like u just never care.
Like nobody even dare,
To stop you from going anywhere.

O’girl,you need to know,
This is not a requisite love..
For you or for him.
That’s why it is a called crush.
So don’t give your heart away.

Keep it for HIM…
The one who created you 
and all the things around you.
Because HE knows better.
ALLAH is the Greatest Planner…

Our love with HIM is the one 
we called requisite love…
-The End-

*make the much of it…seize the day.
 #carpe diem# Dead Poetry Society

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Pencarian...Penemuan...Segala yg berterusan dan dilepaskan.

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera  ^_^

Harini second day class utk sem ni…
And I think I am having fun…
Maybe sbb harini kelas Dr Nooreiny kot…
So mcm byk lawak and story instead of boring lectures…
Ehehe and byk yg dh setel so far…

I mean, dah setel denda, dh mendaftar,
Subjek2 dh daftar or easy to say dh terurus…
Then, surat mohon kolej dh selamat kt ofis
Beserta borang tggal di kolej *credit to Abg Lai yg byk tlg…
So tggu next week je utk tau dpt ke x and kalau dpt kt mne…
Semoga dipermudahkan… Amin yarabbal alamin.

So, my status on fb today…
“Some people are just lucky to have found it…
And some people just don’t…
Keep on searching…
In Shaa Allah…
May Allah ease everything…
Amin Yarabbal alamin…” Airiena Mohd (2013)
*budget quotes plak…

Ok, what I mean is,
People live in searching…
Searching of themselves,
Who they wanna be…
What they really want…
Who they want to be with,
And also what path to follow in life…
Searching for the lights…

Harini apa yg aku dpt is…
Pencarian2 itu adalah apa yg sdg aku lalui.
Aku cari siapa diri aku… apa yg aku nk?
Macam mna nk jdkan diri ni lebih baik dri sblm2nya?
Dan bagaimanakah supaya aku boleh mendekatkan diri pada Nya?
Dan terus dekat dengan Nya?

Org kata berubah memang mudah…
Aku setuju…
Tp mengekalkan sesuatu perubahan itu yg payah.
Aku mencari motivasi,
Kekuatan dan semangat.
Yg aku sangka x pernah ada utk aku.
Tp bila aku toleh sekeliling…
Masih ramai yg ambil berat…
Masih ramai yg beri sokongan…

Aku cuba jd positif…
Dan aku masih terus mencuba walau ada masanya terbabas juga.
Hahaha manusia mana yg perfect? Kan?

Harini kawan aku di ambil oleh seseorg yg istimewa dlm hidup dia.
Aku seronok mendengar dia bahagia…
Walau kadang2 hati ni rasa sesuatu yg bisa.
I mean I am happy for them, but still…
I wish I am still living the life just like that…
Haish… one day…
One day, I will go through all of that again.
One day, which is years from now.

Aku selalu rasa aku x blh jd lonely-ner…
Sentiasa hrp ade seseorg yg aku blh depend on…
But once aku jd serik utk patah hati lg…
Aku bljr syg diri sendiri dan terus nikmati hidup ni…
It works I tell you…
Aku lebih happy dan bahagia mcm ni.
Just give urself sometime and space.
Think just about you for once.
As a change, you live life to the fullest.

Selepas bertahun2 dlm suasana yg tertekan…
Aku akhirnya rasa aku bebas dri sgla rasa dlm dada.
Aku selalu jga remind myself…
Benci sgt blh jd syg…
Syg sgt boleh jd benci…

Aku terlalu benci pada mereka2 yg akhirnya aku rindui,
Yg akhirnya aku jd teringin masuk smla dlm hdup mereka.
Namun mengenag hati yg masih terluka, aku tangguhkan.
Mungkin suatu hari nanti?
Apabila hari itu tiba…
Aku lah org yg pling gembira…
Kerana aku lpas dri sgla rasa marah dijiwa.

Moga suatu hari nanti,
Api amarah pd mereka terubat jua.
Semoga hati ini terlepas dripada rasa dendam dan sebagainya.
Doakan,ya?

Dia juga…
Terlalu membenci diri ini.
Walau aku masih mencari2 apa yg sbnrnya dia rasakan kini.
Aku x pernah membenci dia…
Tp aku akui api amarah padanya masih ada dan membara…
Kerana rasa terhina itu melebihi segala…
Namun aku pinjam kata2nya…
Satu hari nanti Allah akan balas segalanya.
Ketika itu keadilan akan menghukum juga…
Kau, aku, atau juga keduanya…

Bohong kalau aku kata tiada rasa sedih dlm jiwa
Dibenci sebegitu rupa…Lara…
Namun utk apa melayan rasa?
Yg x mungkin bawa kita kemana2?

Hari ini jika aku dpt memegang seekor merpati putih…
Nescaya akan kubebaskan ke langit tinggi agar terlihat apa yg kurasa…
Akan ku sujud dlm dakapan tuhan menandakan kesyukuran atas nafas yg DIA berikan…
Tanpa sedar,hari ini akan jd smlm…
Esok akan jd hari ini…
Semoga aku bisa melangkah lebih tabah dan kehadapan tanpa menoleh.
In Shaa Allah
Amin

YA ALLAH YA RABBI…
Hanya diri MU lah perancang terhebat jln takdir hidupku.

Monday, September 9, 2013

New semester, new life, new beginning, moving on.

Assalamualaikum and a very good morning!

Harini mood agak ceria sikit 
maklumlah semester baru dan
hari pertama tahun 3 di UKM nih…

Jujur, inilah hari yg aku tggu2 
sbb dh x sggup cuti tnpa buat apa2…

Now I can back to using my brain
in a very active mode.

Wlpn tersgt bz dan terlalu byk bnda 
nk kna buat and terlalu byk nk kna byr,
Aku tetap mencuba yg terbaik…

Sunday…
Masa mengemas bilik yg
terlalu lah bersepah slps tggal 2 bln…

Tertonggeng tergolek, melutut, 
tunggang terbalik bagai. 
Semua action ade…

Selepas berbakul habuk debu 
dan sebagainya siaplah bilik tu dgn jayanya,
Susun brg2 dh mcm entah ape…
Maklumlah brg2 dua org…
Tp mood masing2 ceria
and berborak sampai x egt dunia!!!

Monday (harini le tuh)
First class… awesome!
Things at canselori, 
everything is smoothly done so far…
Bilik tggal isi besok borang and print…
Esaimen yg first dh setel…
So basically, everything is fine so far…
Beserta azam2 baru pun yg so far 
still boleh follow 
even sometimes still breaking it.

Well…kdg2 rules are made to be broken, 
not just followed, kan? Hahaha

Still..aku berdoa yg terbaik utk sem ni
In shaa Allah Amin yarabbal alamin…
Wish me luck and all the best you guys.

اَللَّهُمَّ اَلْهِمْنِيْ رَشْدِيْ وَقِنِيْ شَرَّ نَفْسِيْ

 “ Ya Allah, berikan aku petunjuk dan peliharalah aku dari kejahatan sendiri. ”

p/s: ada yg tnya knpe aku masih simpan post and entry pasal wedding and engagement kitorg dlu hgga skrg... for me, itu semua cite dh lepas..well yes, we are divorced now, tp kalau padam sekalipun entry tu doesn't make any different coz in real life it happened and cannot be erase. Just, move on coz that is the best. Truthfully and honestly, I have.