Tuesday, September 28, 2010

mY DaDDy,Oh My DaDDy!!!


There are only one man...
a fabulous man...
the man of my life...
that I am going 2 love forever
and always in my life...
that I would never forget
anything about...
for the rest of my life...
and the person is...

my father,...
MR AHMAD ABDULLAH

I probably never told him...
or said daily...
direct 2 him...
in front of his face...
one by eye...
but the truth is...
I love him...
so much,in fact...

I never find sum1 like him
as the replacement...
he is juz sum1...
that could,
never be replaced...

and I am thankful 2 ALLAH
that I have him...
with me...

he is the best...
kind,always want 2 help...
sometimes it makes me feel guilty...
and dunno y I still am...?

maybe coz I know...
so far...
I not yet be the daughter of his dream?
Ok,seems nonsense
and ridiculous...
crap talking...
but not 4 me...

ok,i still find it hard 2 cry coz it
is a family matter...
but,...
I know he loves and always been
proud of me...
or maybe,it sorts of what I wanna think...
or believe inside,deeply...
I dun wanna lose him,ever!
Hear me?
Ever...
my dad is such a perfect man
always been a great dad 2 me...
at least that is what I thought
and of coz...
the reason is...
he is my father...
and I love him...
nothings gonna separate us...
no more...

I dun care what other people say
or think...
that I am not illegally child of him
or whatever...
so what if he is my adopted father?
We still love each other,...
a strong bond that cannot be untie...
well whatever,...
he raised me up...
since I was just a small girl till now rite?
So technically speaking,...
I AM HIS DAUGHTER!!
no matter what they want 2 say...
go on,doesn't effect us,really...

that what make it so hard 2 say
goodbye...
in any situation...
I am not going 2...


juz finishes readingCLEAN BREAK and realise how important he is 4 me
my father,my dad,my ABAH...
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!!!


Friday, September 17, 2010

A dAy 2 ReMeMbeR >>> dReaM oN...

2day i went out with my childhood bestfrenz...
among of my bestfrenz i still had till now...
it was good...

our location is JAYA JUSCO SEREMBAN 2
and we ate breakfast at Big Apple...
i had 2 doughnuts...
Say Cheese & De La Cheese...
and a cup of Cappucino...
it was all,DAMN GOOD!!!

then we watch Resident Evil-Afterlife...
its ok...
we ate popcorn with vanilla coke...
and i had a hotdog...

after movie,
we survey a place 2 eat lunch...
b4 turn up 2 eat at Secret Recipe...
and i had...
Ice Lemon Tea
Prawn Macaroni Cheese
(did i spell it rite? who cares?)
and i had a piece of cake... Hazel Cheese...
(is 2day a Cheese Day or something?)

i am soooo FULL 2day...
Ate a lot!!!
i must have gain weight...
few Kilos it might be...

but i loves it!!!
menggemukkan badan...
huhuhu thats fun...

hurm...
i think 2day is fun coz we debate few interesting topic...
we both loves debating...
love self defence by words...
kind of type... menegakkan benang yg basah...
hahaha

we both loves law...
she is in um (Universiti Malaya) now
taking degree of law... anyway...
while i am still here...
but i know my time will come...
one day... i will leave and chase that dream...
and turn it to reality...
stop depressing myself now...

we used 2 dream...
in a primary school that one day...
we will open up our own law firm together...
and we were about to make it true...
if it is destined 4 us...
hopefully...

we are much alike 2 each other
and we love 2 hang out together
her dad came and stop by
when he pick her up this evening...
and he wants 2 help with my flow after this...
i mean,.. support statement 4 university...

juz one more step...
and it will come true...
gosh...
i can't tell how much i want it...
LAW-UKM
thats it!
u go gurl!!!
its yours with great effort...
4 sure...

i wont let anything stop me
not anymore!!!



Thursday, September 9, 2010

FiRsT RaYa StoRy

My first day raya...

Well...its amazing... (uh huh?)
ke sadis gile...? (control sedey)
every year rayer mesti tumpang sana sini...
sedih gile..
(like, i haven't got my own house)
x umah ayah,umah pak ndak...
tp x ksh la,.. janji rayer an...
 
egt lg dulu rayer je pepagi arwah mak dah kejut aku
suh g mndi bagai... wangi2 and pakai bju baru,...
kate die... "dah raye!!" dgn sore excited...
 
pastu mem bz kan diri wat pe ntah kat dapur...
ade je kejenyer...sementara tggu abah balik dari masjid
I MISS THAT TIME AND MOMENT...
then mula lah forgiving moment...
baru g tour around...
 
sekarang???
huh...

selalunyer akuh rayer kat umah ibu dulu b4 g mane2
tawun nih akuh g umah m.ngah sebelah dulu baru g umah mak ndak...
ayah dgn ibu dah g jln dulu...
x pat ikowt @ kene tinggal...
huh...(ahaha)

my daddy lah lmbt skit 2day
die mcm x sehat jek
isau plak akuh jdnyer...
nak tggalkan pown tadelah aku sdap ati...
dahla x sempat wat forgiving session lg...
haiyoooo....

g kubur pown x tawun ni...
2 make it worse aku x leh bace pape pown this year
due 2 disability 2 do so... sadis!!!

however aku dpt gaklah g jejalan 2day...
kire ok gak la kan than nothing
tapi siyez terase dis year..
sadis...sedih bosan...
raye bermakne x utk aku???

hmmm...

Monday, September 6, 2010

ThE ThiNg CaMe uP AfTeR Missin' sum1

I stand by the window,
looking at the sky,
and gazing to the moving clouds...

I see the face which i miss,
so deeply,
it displays through the lovely and shiny,
sunrays...

It is looking bright,
and wonderful,
just like i always thought it would be...

I think i can hear your voice,
in the blowing winds,
saying my name,
and reveal your love confession 2 me,
very gently,
it sooth me right on...

My hands were all shivering,
not that i feel scared or neither feeling cold,
even i walk outside in the dark night,
my heart tingglings,
I can feel the dizzyness,
and butterflies in my stomach...

It is the thought of seeing you soon,
that blows me away,
in the fantasy,
and the facts that i feel happy...

While my heart are asking,
am i in love with you?

Finally... I got the answer,
at last,...
It says,
I am falling for you slowly,
and i am enjoying every moment,
and seconds of it,
i don't even realise the time passed by,
this feeling is so good...

Your love make me stand up,
give me strength i never thought,
 i could have back,
again..

You are the anchor of my soul...


Sunday, September 5, 2010

ShopPinG 4 RayA Ha$ GoNe 2 FaR & oVer...BeYoNd eXpeCtaTiOn... :)

BOOST MY POCKETS!!!
Shopping 4 Raya is 2 much this year
over and beyond what i had planed in my mind...
I was planning not 2 RAYA SAKAN this year
but obviously it is juz limited 2
visiting...
not outfit...

i mean,seriously...
i had spent about RM 370
4 the whole package of raya preparation...
i mean who in my ages do that...
(ok,said that juz 2 be dramatic,BUT still...)

i went 4 shopping 3 times...
first with ija
(on Monday)
second with K.dik
(Tuesday Nite)
then lastly with Shiema
(Saturday)
see?

sooo... it is not a wonder i have spent a lot

following are my list of things i bought:

1)Modern Kurung (yellow + autumn leaves motive)
2)Match scarf or shawl... (with simple blings)
3)Strip heels (black+2 inches)
4)Ribbon motive wedges (glitters black +1 and half inch)
5)Simple strip sandal (non heels)
6)Small ribbon motive handbag (black +glit)
7)Jimmy Choo bag (black + big and glit)
8)In garments (2 pairs)
9)Wallet (pink,M.Teddy)
10)Louis Vuitton Sunglasses (black)
11)Brooch (10+small)
12)Maroon/Red-ish Blouse (short sleves)
13)White Glittery Blouse (long sleves)
14)Chips & Raya Cookies

Total And Sum Up?
=RM 370 (like i told b4) uh huh...

but its gonna be ok i guess...
so...enjoy RAYA...
but not 2 much till 4geting books..
CHAIYOK2...

these are the photos of raya clothing line...
huhuhu
ok x?
comment and rate if u dont like it...



Haa... thats all my raya preparation...
else than that is too privacy 2 exhibit...
huhuhu..
lastly...
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

Thursday, September 2, 2010

What is so wrong 2day? duh,yer missin' sum1 aye?

  damn yer missin' sum1 2day aye?
its hard huh?
nway,teacher said in sarcastic way
:hope u will show up 2mrw
last day...
i was like... :
you bet i am coming...

living life wonderfully...
feel like something missing though...
but,what? :=)

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

I am full of spirit 2day!!! :)

2day i can feel myself full with spirit...
a good one actually...
a lit up fire...
which is good since i dreamt so high...
2 touch the sky...
where i was falling b4 is past...
where i stand now is a road which not taken and i have 2 go on...
non stop journey 2 get what i want...
and it has started...


i think i can see clearly now...
and i am so inspired and excited...
hopefully it will last longer than b4...
wish me luck and pray 4 me...

If It Is Fate 2 Be...

If his heart is yours...
let time decide it 4 you...
if you are in his mind...
trust that you will always be in his heart...
if destiny unite both of you together...
appreciate every moment you spend with him...
and don't ever let each other goes apart...
if you are the one...
and if he is the only one...
hold 2 it with no regrets...

if your road and mine destined 2 met on the end...
don't let it comes to the edges now...
trust that...
one day i will be yours and you will be mine...
fully heart belongs 2 each other...

if we really belong together...
have faith that...
we will always be...
no matter what happend...