Being Brave And Dare Myself Again To Risk

Assalamualaikum 

and hye everyone,

Hari2 sbelumnya sebenarnya 

hati tertanya2 dgn perasaan sendiri.

Mungkin aku masih rasa sakit itu lagi.

Ketakutan itu lagi.

Terluka itu sangat sakit.

Kekecewaan itu sendiri bisa 

membunuh kebahagiaan hati.

Aku jadi tidak berani melangkah.

Was-was apa yg ada 

dihadapan mata sendiri.

Walaupun cinta itu 

tidak terungkap, x terkata.

Meski tidak mencari, 

tidak menjangka 

aku bertemunya,

Dia adalah hadiah dan 

kurniaan terindah tika ini.

Dan aku mahu ia kekal begitu

 hingga ke akhirnya.

Tapi mungkin itu yg aku takutkan,

Takut apa yg terjadi bkn 

seperti pengharapan.

Mendalamnya apa yg aku rasakan,

Aku jadi takut utk meneruskan 

mahupun menanti mahupun 

melangkah kehadapan.

Namun aku berterima kasih 

dia memberikan aku kepercayaan

 dan keyakinan semula.

Membuat aku yakin dgn dirinya, 

dgn hatinya, dgn rasa cinta 

yg diberikan olehnya.

SNT, sy x mencari awak, 

sy x berharap menemui sesiapa,

Lebih2 lagi secepat ini. 

Sbnrnya sy lg berhrp 

tidak menemui sesiapa.

Namun takdir mmg x terduga,

 bkn ditangan kita.

X sgka awk akan hadir dlm hidup sy.

Memberi erti dan nafas baru.

Awak buat sy rasa bahagia.

Terima kasih byk utk itu.

Selepas byk bercerita tntg awk,

Dgn mata yg dikatakan 
oleh mereka 
penuh bercahaya,

dgn keyakinan yg terserlah,

saya tau, y nk terus dgn awk…

selamanya.

Ingat janji kita?

I never thought I’m gonna say this again.

But SNT, I love you. I do.

You make me realise 

a lot of things I never see before.

Thanks a lot for everything.

And,...I miss you.

More than annoyed for not-mine works.

Assalamualaikum and good day all…

*even though it CLEARLY WASN’T A GOOD DAY FOR ME

In a way I am not complaining,

It’s just that I really hate to do somebody’s job…

Ok, it was a work that’ll help me learn, but still.

I was feeling heavy about the great flow after 5 months of nothing,

Then, I was actually in pain and not in a very good health

And in the last week of semester we were revealed our carry marks.

Yes, it helps u targeting for finals.

But, seriously it bothers you.

Confidence is nothing without the outcome.

Doing double, triple work which is not yours…

Seriously annoying!

Oh, f the s. seriously.

When u are in pain, not in good mood, 
its not fun to be pressure on. 
especially by fussy puss.
you feel like slapping someone. seriously.

The Poem For Someone Again...After A Long Time.

You made me smile

You made me 

think of you every second

You made me drift away 

from the real world

You made me 

stand up on my own

You made me the 

happiest in a day

You made me cry for 

the right reason

You made me feel touched

You made me 

felt appreciated

You made me realize 

it’s a real world out there

You made me stumble 

from missing you

You made me live the dream 

when I am still awake

You made me trust, believe, 

and risk again

You made me dare to try again

And lastly, 

you made me fall 

for someone again.

Thank you for that :)